when the mirrors and the lights and the smoke clears,

I never guessed how we ever could have got here. - Celebrity Status by Marianas Trench

I haven't written in SO LONG. Almost a full two months... pardon me!
Not a lot has been happening though. Exams are over, Summer has started. Do you remember the person I said I kinda really liked a few blogs ago? Well, May 26th style="font-style: italic;">the weirdest person you might ever meet, once you get to know me. He doesn't look like the type of person to be, but he is honestly a sweetheart .

On another note... I work today. Or well.. I "work". I just babysit three kids ages four, six and nine for about $12/hr. It's like a work schedule though, so I call it work. It's not bad, they're good kids. But today is the first day of them ALL being out of school when I first arrive. YIKES! Haha, not really it'll all be fine.

I have been stuck on what else to write since 9:43. So I will now end this.
So long!

it will be the death of me,

before I let you get the best of me. - Where The Wild Things Are (Monsters) by Anarbor

I've had this song in my head ALL DAY. I think it's kind of weird how songs can just get stuck in our head, how we can just memorize something and continuously think of it throughout the day. Actually, I think the brain is pretty amazing in general. It's the organ in which we have the least knowledge about, and it's what keeps us alive. It's the reason our heart knows how to pump blood, and it's the reason we know how to breath. We "train" it and are able to read, write, and its just so.. awesome XD. Maybe I should give up my dream of being a National Geographic photographer and go for Psychology, hahaha. If I'm THAT amazed by the brain.

What is something that you are completely amazed with?



"If you have never been amazed by the very fact that you exist, you are squandering the greatest fact of all." Jim Fiebig

let's pretend..

I love the smell of the air when it rains. I even have my window open right now.

I haven't written in a while, but I still don't know what to write about. My good friend on almost 13 years was up this weeked (she usually comes up once a month, but this was the first in 2 months D: ) and it was awesome. I missed her so much! Also, I went out for dinner for my other friend's birthday, even though it was yesterday. Had lots of fun. But, I think I found something to talk about...

Most of the time, we see something happen. We want to help, but we never put action to it. We see someone and we wish we could help, but we don't. Why is that? Is it the fear of what's going on might be pushed onto us? Or are we all just that selfish that we don't care enough to put action to our thoughts. We know it's happening, but why don't we act upon it?

Am I just repeating myself again?

i haven't blogged in a while..

But does that really matter? Not like anyone is really paying attention to my blog XD

I'm not really sure what to blog about, I've been drawing HUGE blanks. My mom is pissed off at me, which really sucks, I hate when people are mad at me and they yell. 'Cause I always cry :/ I'm waaay to sensitive. I also wear my heart on my sleeve.. in some scenarios at least.
Well, on a positive note, I kinda really like someone <3 Hahaha, I don't know if it's really going to go anywhere, but I know that I'd like it to. I feel like a complete and total girl. My past two relationships I was the one who asked the guy out, but on this one, I just, I can't get myself to XD hahaha.

Back to a negative note, I have a shin splint :/ I ran myself to the limit on Friday and my shins are all inflamed and stuff. It REALLY hurts! But, oh well, no pain--no gain, right?

"And you said “this is the first day of my life,
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you.
But now I don’t care, I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

First Day Of My Life by Bright Eyes

business before pleasure.

I've really been cleaning up my act lately.

I've been studying harder and not going out so much. I do hang out with my friends, however I've been doing what's best for me. Going to the gym, handing in homework on time, studying, reading more books, spending more time with family, etc... I've also been reducing my screen-time!

I guess it's paid off, last semester my marks were: 50 (math) 67 (careers) 70 (civics) 70 (art) 91 (spanish) okay the spanish was good but that's cause languages come natural to me.
So far THIS semester I have a 90 (history) 84 (hospitality and tourism) 82 (english) and a 78 (science) :D

I don't have anything interesting to talk about, so enjoy another photograph :)


p.s. I like someone. :)

another casualty of society,

I don't want to waste my time, honestly.

Last night I was debating on what to do with my future, and you know what? I think I know what direction I want to take. I've always been pushed to go in the direction of science, and I will admit that wouldn't be a bad idea considering I'm rather good in that subject, but it's too much work for me. I know I wouldn't do it. I'm good at it, but I don't necessarily like it (that's where the work comes in, I'd have to push myself). This is why I've decided that I'm going to go into the direction of my passion, art.

I've even changed my courses for grade 11 based on this. What used to be : math, english (obvs.) spanish2, anthro, chemistry, biology, physics and visual arts, is now: math, english, spanish2, visual arts, media arts, comtech, astronomy and hospitality and tourism. Why astronomy though? When I was younger I used to love the stars, constellations, etc. I feel that bringing that back will help me realize who I am, how I used to be before corrupted by other people. I wish that I took french again this year, so that I could take french11, (languages are also my passion, culture etc) but I don't want to be in a grade 10 class while in grade 11 just so I can get up there.

p.s. I live in Canada so French is our second language. Not many schools have the option of learning Spanish, lucky for me when I my trip to Mexico gave me the love of the language, I was able to continue learning because I attend a high school which included the programme.

All in all, I hope that my 11th year (which is technically my 13th year -with junior and senior kindergarten in the count) will help me see which area of art I would like to take. And hopefully, I'll be able to take part in the Integrated Arts programme my school has :)

webcam shot

This is a poor excuse to show my creative side. However, I will state that ambidexterity rules =D

"I don't wanna waste my time,
become another casualty of society.
I'll never fall in line,
become another victim of your conformity
and back down."

Fat Lip by Sum 41

let the boredom take over,

I'm bored! and I have nothing to write about, so, here :D

here's how it works:

1. open your library (iTunes, winamp, media player, et cetera).
2. put it on shuffle.
3. press play.
4. for every question type the song that's playing.
5. when you go to a new question press the next button.
ready? GO!

opening credits:
Blurry by Puddle of Mudd
Sounds cool :)

waking up:
Accidents by Alexisonfire

average day:
You Eclipsed By Me by Atreyu

first date:
Hit The Floor by Bullet For My Valentine
HE HIT ME THAT BITCH

falling in love:
Dear Time Traveler, by The Scene Aesthetic
AWEEEE

love scene:
Fake It by Seether
It wasn't true ):

fight scene:
Every Where I Go by Scenes and Sirens
'Everywhere I go, bitches always know.. that you don't mess with me!;D"

breaking up:
Back of My Hand by Down With Webster
XD 'I thought I knew you like the back of my hand'

making up:
Bad Girlfriend by Theory of a Deadman
:|

secret love:
Alone Together by the Strokes
LMFAO IT GOES

life's okay:
Still Dreaming by Silverstein
not quite right...

mental breakdown:
Whoa Is Me by Down With Webster
"woe" is me.

driving:
Smart, Witty, Fun, Sexy by LoveHateHero

learning a lesson:
Hope Dies Last by Holiday Parade
"to go back to the days of last summer"

deep thought:
Let Me Beat Your Eardrum by Cage the Elephant

flashback:
Stay In Shadow by Finger Eleven

happy dance:
London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines by Panic at the Disco

regretting:
Can't Buy Me Love by The Beatles
Did I let you do that in the first place?

long night alone:
Spotlight by Mute Math

final battle:
Crawling by Linking Park
looks like I'm losing...

Death Scene:
5 Bucks by Anarbor
Alright... who bet on my death?

closing credits:
Love Song for No One by John Mayer

"His little whispers, love me, love me.
That's all I ask for, love me, love me.
He battered his tiny wrists to feel something.
Wondered what it's like to touch, and feel something."

Monster by Meg & Dia